Ive had many new year’s resolutions in the past, you name it: a dry january, not getting fines for driving anymore (failed the first day) going more often to the Gym, eating more healthy etc. etc.
I never had the willpower to go thru with the things i wanted- expect the dry january, so this year i thought it is about time i grow up
when me and my ex separated i reflected on the things he had asked me to do or give up and so i started working on those things, (the ones that made sense), my self before the new year started.
i lost 4 kg when i had covid and that really kicked off my motivation to work on my body and watch what i eat. my fridge has been empty for weeks and i never thought i could live like that. ive always had a full fridge just in case, but now i only buy what i really need, that way no food will be wasted and i only eat when i am really hungry.
i have had my gym membership for 4 years and it was time for me to become a regular there and do some things at home. there are parts on my body that need improvement big time so i had to kick my inner lazy Girls a.. and as lady be ready to hit the gym and know the outcome would make me happy and balanced.
my online shopping escalates. boy there was a package at the door almost every day for the last two months. i think missing my ex or the lack of having a partner, made me shop even more to get that little feeling of attention and satisfaction. obivously i know no clothes can make me feel less lonely, but shopping felt really good at that time.
Me Time- i really started liking being alone and use the time to read new books, relax or do absolutely nothing. it is boring and lonely sometimes but i think its important to be able to be alone sometimes. otherwise one will always be on the run to be with other people and never get a break to just sit still for a moment and reflect and possibly settle for less than actually wanted, just because they cannot be alone..
Being honest to my self.. although it hurts and makes me regret a few things ive done differently in life that i would do different today i needed to remember that this was and is a part of growing up. i need to forgive myself for the things that i didnt do as good as i couldve and start doing them differently from now on. i can not change the past but i can learn from it and do it differently in the future.
So for me my new year’s resolutions will be to stop shopping online for useless things, save up money, work on my body and health and to never stop working on becoming a lady