how i used to love the holidays. people getting busy to buy gifts, getting my tree up 2 months ahead, the whole atmosphere and if we were lucky the snow that made outside look like a wonderland.
growing up me and my brother were very lucky. we had a beautiful house in the suburbs, a goldenretriver, a happy mum and a happy dad and we always went on nice vacations and never lacked anything. picture perfect family.
this year was the first time in 12 years that i am single on christmas and i will admit it sucked.
its the season of love and while i am a hopeless romantic- for me, its all year season of love. i have a big heart and want to give so much love, so my dogs helped me a lot thru the holidays as did my family.
i didnt realize how much i missed my ex. or did i just miss having someone and not being alone?
anyway i realized that thankfully i am never alone, i have my family, good friends and my two dogs. i spent two days in my hometown at my mothers place and i felt at home and less lonely. i am happy when the christmas season is over- never thought id think that, but i also use the time to reflect a lot.
cant wait for the new year and to be the best version of my self. as most of us i do have things i want to change for the new year and things i want to leave in the old year.
new chapter, new year.