Ever liked someone and tried to unsee their annoying sides?
I recently met an ex of mine and we hang out a few times (no nothing happened), we went for lunch a few times, took walks and talked a bit. i wasnt quit over the break up and might have had some hope.
i kept in mind why i did not work out and what we argued about but still wished we could reconnect, which seemed like thats what was happening in the beginning.
after a while i understood that while i had changed for the better and was working on my self he cleary would not change himself or work on things that could be improved a bit.
to be fair i know i cannot change another person but i can work on my reaction towards things that annoye me and maybe see past the little things.. compromise maybe even..
but more often i found myself rolling my eyes in my head and just getting, well not frustrated but perhaps a bit bothered by certain things this person said.
in the past those things would have driven me mad and i might have even gotten in an argument but given the fact that i had been working on becoming a better version of my self i also gotten stronger and did not want to waste time and energy on a stupid dispute that would leave into an argument.
i also learned to understand that there are just certain negativities that i dont want myself surrounded by.
i guess i am growing up mentally as well and can walk away with my head up from a situation i am not comfortable with and isnt worth a battle..
i was able to not get sad or hurt anymore because of someone elses behaviour.
and so i wondered, had i moved on or did i just become bullshit proof?